Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Elizabeth turns 6 years old today (Spinal Muscular Atrophy)






                                      
Happy Birthday to Elizabeth Lee Hallam!!

Six years old. It is hard to believe Elizabeth has turned 6 years old today


She came into our life around 8pm Sept.29,2003. She was a beautiful baby. Shortly after birth the nurse had her on her shoulder I said something . Elizabeth lifted her head and turned her head towards the sound of my voice and I knew a special bound was created at that very moment. Little, did I know that was the first and last time she was able to lift her head.

This little girl changed our lives forever. Many things to deal with the first few year. Illnesses, hospital stays, doctors giving us no hope, lots of tears  and lots of praying . Finally things seemed to get better the older she got. I learned to know what she needed just by the look on her face.

Never had I ever wanted to fly on a plane let alone fly to CA.  We took Lizzy across the country to a clinical trial at Stanford and it was the start of things getting better.

I would talk to a parent or caregiver and hear something was working go see the family doc and he said "If it fits down that G-tube we will try it" Trial and error.  She was having issues digesting her formula in her g-tube so we tried  donor Breast milk with her formula and it worked!! It cured her reflux issues among other things and she started to thrive after that. Then, using pedilite with her formula when she was sick helped her so much also. Things just kept getting better.

I seemed to figure a lot out out after talking to other parents and caregivers,emailing doctors like DR.Kelley and talking to DR.Schroth and DR.Wang. I researched so much. Finding things that helped Lizzy and other kids like her consumed me. It actually consumed me until this  past summer. I took a break from researching and enjoyed living life with Lizzy. She is such a joy and I am honored to have her in my life. For a child to be happy all the time and be healthy that can not sit with out support, stand or walk makes her my hero. Makes you feel like you are doing something right.

I had to learn to figure out how to get Lizzy what she needed no matter if I had to ask for help. I was not that kind of person to let others send us things. I had to do what ever I could to get her what she needed. So, many fights with her DME also to deal with .

I barely left Lizzy's side. I still do not leave much but I do leave occasionally. I would be afraid to take a shower the first year because I was afraid she would die while I was taking a shower. No one can imagine until you live it. I went from having no kids at home and two jobs to no job and hovering over my grand-daughter like an old hen.Was it all worth it ? You betcha.
So, much more to our story in an article I submitted to the Jennifer Trust in the UK a few years back.
http://www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth/images/updates/files/Lizzy%20Story.jpg
http://www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth/images/updates/files/Lizzy%20story%20pge.jpg

I have met so many wonderful people since this journey began. I didn't not know so many great people existed. I am honored to have met so many.



She has been doing very well the last few years and I thank God every night for that. She is an amazing child and such a gift. She is determined some how some way to do anything she needs to do.

My advice to others if you have been handed a death sentence for your baby do not believe it until you have researched and talked to others that have the same thing. Grandparents if your kids will not fight for your grandchildren you do it if you have the strength and love it takes. I did and so glad I did.

Believe ...in miracles they do exist. We live with a miracle.

Lizzy has been ill since last week and the day after her immunizations but she is getting better. Lizzy has not been sick all summer. Not sure what is going on but she is improving. I think we learned a lesson.... No more immunizations.



Keep Lizzy in your prayers. Please pray for MJ too. She is in the hospital and very ill.

"We believe in miracles because we live with one"
www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Sunday, September 27, 2009

'Tis the season for illnesses (Spinal Muscular Atrophy)


I just got online for the first time in a few days.

Lizzy has been sick..... I am not sure what happened or what she has. Weirdest thing.  She got her some of her 4-6 yr immunizations on Tuesday. She has been fine up that point. I was very concerned about getting all those shots at once . I wanted to hold off and only do one series at a time but.... her Mom said she would be fine. I gave her some Motrin before she went . She did not even cry and she got two shots all together. MMR, Polio and DT. I expected a fever and she had a low grade temp the first night then next day she got BAD. She did also that night lose her third tooth that was so loose we thought it might fall out while she was sleeping so Paul pulled it. Oh my .....did she fight that.
Lizzy's lungs were filling up both sides..... her fever shot up to 102 and sore throat . She has been really sick. She even spent a few days on bipap. She has been on Zpak since Friday. I was up for 3 nights straight with no sleep. Friday, I felt like I been run over and Lizzy and I went to bed VERY early Friday night but I did a 2am treatment & 5am treatment


Lizzy is bit better but she has had some issues plugging and her nose is non stop stuffy. She has no fever today though.

Tuesday is her birthday and she has to be better!!

She has been not hardly any where the last 10 days so we are not sure what is going on. All summer we were gone and once we stay home she gets sick. No one sick has been around her. DR.Schroth thought maybe she picked up something at the doctors office when she got her shots. I dont know but this is weird. She said it was also hard on her to get her shots but to be this sick there is something else going on.

No more immunizations for Lizzy EVER!!! We are done unless there is an epidemic we will not get them for her again.
Add her to your prayers!!
"We believe in miracles because we live with one "
www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Monday, September 21, 2009

What is SMA? It is a Disease That Steals Children ( Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1)

What is SMA? It is a disease that steals children. I hate SMA .
I heard this morning that friends of ours beautiful daughter Olivia (3 1/2 years old) earned her wings today . She lost her battle to this terrible disease like many others before her. I just do not get why so many children have to die so young.
Like, my Elizabeth and her older sister Hannah she had Type 1 SMA. Every time, I hear of a child pass because of SMA my heart just hurts(like a sharp pain), shed tears and I feel like a piece of my heart has broken away . To know them on top of it makes the pain in my heart more intense. Her mother Stephanie is a pioneer in the Amino Acid diet for Type 1s and Mary Bodzo the pioneer for Type 2s. They have taught so many parents/caregivers (as well as myself) on the diet. These two women help save so many lives. They gave these kids a better quality of living just by figuring out a proper diet for them. Her Dad Tim is a Respiratory therapist has helped me on many occasion when Elizabeth was in respiratory distress at all hours of the night. They have taught me so much that has helped me help Lizzy and other parents.

Children with Type 1 are diagnosed usually before 6 months of age, more often before 3 months of age. They are not able to hold up their heads, roll over, crawl, sit up without support, or walk. All of their muscles are extremely weak, with the weakest muscles being the legs, upper arms, and neck. Their chest may appear concave, or very skinny at the top, with a big belly. Bell shaped. SMA affects all muscle systems as well including sucking, and swallowing, digesting food. A common cold can easily turn into pneumonia can take the lives of these children.
Statistics show that the average life expectancy of a child with SMA Type I is no longer than 2 years old. Many pass as infants before their 1st birthday.
Each child is affected so differently by SMA that they do not all follow the same progression.
Thank God for doctors like DR.Bach DR. Schroth that practice the NIV protocol(Noninvasive Ventilation) that has helped so many of these beautiful kids survive. With the help of the Internet Parents/ caregivers are now finding resources to help these kids survive longer.
Then..... you can do EVERY THING you can to save your child and one day they have a bad mucus plug, aspiration or illness and you lose them. There are no guarantees with SMA.

I hate SMA......

We need to have so much research done to help DEFEAT this terrible disease. Please help with SMA research. We have lost so many too many....

These are beautiful intelligent kids and they need our help to FIGHT this disease.
I need to go hug my "Lizzy" right now.

Please say prayers for my friends the Price family to help them get through the days a head. To lose is child is so VERY hard. To lose a sibling is also so very hard.

Fly high little Olivia Fly free of SMA.

"We believe in miracles because we live with one"

www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Monday, September 14, 2009

For the love of Grand-children (Spinal Muscular Atrophy)



Seeing my grand kids I get so excited and so do they.
Every day I am with Lizzy and she decided its me she wants to do everything for her a long time ago. I can look at her know exactly by the look in her eyes what is going on when she is having issues.
I saw a few years ago how I was not so involved in my older Grand kids as I used to be because my focus was Elizabeth. So, I made sure I am involved with all of them. As crazy as it gets around here with them here its worth it . They are like my extended kids. I treat them like my own. Corbyn (his bright blue eyes) and the way he cuddles I hate even laying him down when he falls to sleep. I see them all quite a lot except Robbie. Robbie will be 12 and is still VERY attached to his Mom and Dad. EXTREMELY Attached.
Reed Michael lived with us with from the day he came home from the hospital until he was in kindergarten. My younger daughters say Reed is like their brother instead of nephew.
When my grand kids hurt so do I.
Reed was at the golf course on Sunday with his step father Calib and low and behold his father Scott(sperm donor) and grandmother was on the tee right behind him. His father never said two words to Reed on Sunday. I wish I had been there.... I would of told that "piece of crap good for nothing sperm donoring worthless ass-wipe(ooops did I say that?) to go straight to the devil" Knowing Reed just had his 18th birthday not so long ago. No one from that family even called him and wished him happy birthday. NO CARD NO NOTHING. Scott's Mom went after Grandparent rights a long time ago and he had set weekends to be there. Scott was never around Reed then either So, Reed did not want to stay with Scott's parents anymore. He said more or less it was too much drama.
Reed and his real Dad have NEVER had a good relationship because of broken promises(like no shows for special time together) and he is just a "flipping jerk" "Sperm donor" fits what he actually is. He gave up all rights to his other 2 kids so he did not have to pay child support but Dana(Reed's Mom )would not let him get off that easy. He helped bring Reed Michael in this world he can help pay. Dana went after Scott a few years ago for child support. He would not after the order was put for him to start paying when Reed was 6 months old. I know what happened with his Dad on Subdaytore Reed up badly. His stepfather tried to get Reed to confront Scott but Reed said. "He is not worth it" . I just hope Reed's heart his healed when he has kids of his own. Gosh, I love that boy oops.... young man. Why do men have to be like that? Why do some men just think they can go around make babies and disappear out of a child's life. We always made sure Reed got what he needed. Reed was very close to Paul until he hit his teem years.
Okay, enough venting. No one will listen to me around here when I get on a roll I have to write about it. It makes me feel better. I did not have his other grandmother's phone number but, I did email her and tell her how I felt. I am probably going to be in deep trouble over this but its crap and it needs to be out in the open and dealt with. All the "shhhh shhhhhs" are over I have had ENOUGH!!

Lizzy had pictures for her 6th birthday done yesterday and family pics with Brandon and Christen. Then, Dawn and her family had theirs done. The photographer was Rhiannon a family friend doing the pics but I stole some snaps for myself. So, mine are not professional but I could not resist to steal some poses for myself.

DR Hough's office called this afternoon. DR. Hough broke his hand so they cancelled Lizzy's wellness check and shots for tomorrow. I said "YOU CANT CANCEL" I just got Lizzy to not throw a fit she was getting shots.... well I know its unavoidable. But darn...

Any way Lizzy will be 6 years old in a few short weeks. She is amazing and so are her cousins. All my grandkids are a privilege to have in my life.

Many Prayers to our friend Charlie he is not feeling well. Many prayers to MJ who is not feeling well. Many prayers to our friend Molly in CA that is having surgery,
Many prayers to all the sick kids and everyone that needs prayers. Many Prayers to DR. Hough to heal fast.

"We believe in miracle because we live with one"

www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Friday, September 11, 2009

She Never Stops Amazing Me (Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1)


I love this pic of Lizzy around this same time last year.

We had to take Lizzy to ISU (Il. State University ) yesterday for evaluation for Lizzy to see what kind of devices for communication and assistive tech that would help Elizabeth be more assessable. Also, to see where exactly she is as far mental comprehension. Knowing how she was uncooperative with the State Psychologist and with me sometimes during our home school sessions we did not know what to expect. Well, she shocked all of us. She awed them with her knowledge comprehension level. She far exceeds the normal 6 year old mentality/intelligence. OH my.... It was incredible the amount she knew. I did figure out though that Elizabeth has been playing me. Little stinker.
It makes me feel very good that Elizabeth has been paying attention and learning. I guess I can not complain about her watching the history channel with her Papa...... (gritting my teeth here). Paul watches it EVERY DAY ALL AFTERNOON and sometimes into the evening. She also ALWAYS has been pretty observant and does not miss a thing. I lost my TV independence with him home now. My Lizzy never stops amazing. I am very privileged to have this little girl in my life.

So, we will be working with two different reps from two different companies here soon.

Elizabeth's birthday plans are still not set as I had thought. Dawn asked if Lizzy could have her party at her house because the renovations are about done. Well.. I was informed tonight that Robbie my grand-son is celebrating his birthday the day after Elizabeth's party was planned. Now, Dawn has a baby shower for her best friend the same day as Lizzy was going to have her party. I told Christen if she would of sent out the invitations like I told her this would not have never of happened. This really sucks. Every miles stone for Elizabeth is something to celebrate. I guess we come back from the Chicago walk we will be doing her party the next day. Two days early. It is the way it has to be I guess. She wants The Highschool Musical theme this year.

I just heard our good friend Molly from California (that we have stayed with before) has to have surgery, Many prayers to Molly.

Many Prayers to MJ also I just read an update and she is sick . MJ get better soon!!

Lizzy shots are next week. I do not look forward to that.
I also get my flu shot next week and the rest of the family too . Flu season is upon us. I pray Lizzy stays as healthy this fall and winter as she did this summer.

Have a good week-end.

Many prayers to all that need them.

"We believe in miracles because we live with one"

www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Ortho Visit today(Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1)



We got up early today and actually got on the road with time to spare.( we thought any way...) We ran into ROAD Construction. Its takes us a bit over an hour to get to where we go for Lizzy's fittings for her TLSO and AFOS In Peoria. Well, today there was ROAD Construction EVERY where... UGH ... Lizzy was throwing a major hissy because she was bored. We got there on time but on by a few minutes. Paul went with us today because we had to take Lizzy's power chair so Tony (Plattners Ortho) could see how her TLSO fits her sitting down. The newest TLSO just did not fit right and the AFOS were too tight in the legs. Lizzy has gained muscle mass to every one's surprise. (hmmmmmm Is it the oral albuterol or the donor breast milk?)So, we thought we would have to get new ones and wanted them soon because Lizzy's curve has not changed in the last year and that is a good thing and we want to do anything we can to keep her that way. She wears her TLSO and AFOs all the time. She does not get in her chair with out her TLSO on.
She is getting kinda of tight in her knees and I am doing all I can to keep her from doing so but... I NEED help so Tony is going to figure out something a bit better than a knee immobilizer and get back to me. We are going to work on her hands also. I am trying so hard to keep Lizzy from getting contractures not I am not an OT or a PT and do the best job I can. It really sucks that we have no OT/PT in the area that wants to take on Lizzy. We are still working on Easter Seals. Christen had a HUGE packet that she got last week and just finishes it and will be sending it out in the morning. Lizzy needs swim therapy badly it shows how much it helped her before.
Any way , Tony modified her TLSO and her AFOS hopefully it will get us through the Fall winter months. Thank Goodness. Now with that done I am getting everything else she needs taken care of like new hand splints and elbow bracing. Its great Lizzy is growing but I just wish is was not so darn fast!! After we got out the door Lizzy took off in the parking lot(Thank goodness it was not busy )and ran off from us Laughing and giggling. Finally, we talked her in to going back to the van with the bribe of McDonald's French fries. We do not usually let her get away with this but hey she is just a kid and needs to have fun too.

We have a assistive tech/communication appt at ISU on Thursday. They can help us there with so much and we are very excited about this. Only problem our appt is at 10am (Oh my gosh) we have to find it and we have to be in Bloomington early . We can do it... but will Lizzy cooperate? LOL


Special Prayers to Christen friend Melanie and her family. Her Father passed away this past week-end and he has been battling Colon cancer for a long time. He lived a lot longer than they expected. He fought hard but in the end he went at home with his family. Sad... Joan- Marie (Melanies's Mom) will be lost with out him. Three of my girls are going to the memorial service. Paul and I are babysitting.

Many prayers for all that need them.

"We believe in miracles because we live with one"
www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth

Monday, September 7, 2009

Labor Day - Holiday Weekend (Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type 1)

Have you ever felt like time is flying right by you? I mean it seems I was a kid not that long ago fighting with my other brother over a baseball bat, mini bike, or the horses. I am 51. My grandmother's age when I picture her in my mind. Sitting back looking back thinking..... has my life been one I chose to live or its just one chose for me? My kids are grown and their kids are growing so fast. Reed Michael my 1st grand-son is 18 now and Lizzy will be six in a few weeks. Where does all the time go? As, a kid a year seemed like forever and now in a blink of an eye its gone. My body feels old but my minds wants to learn and absorb so much more.

Will they find a cure for SMA in my life time? Who will take care of Lizzy like I do when I am gone if there is not a cure? Finding a way to keep Elizabeth strong and healthy consumes my inner being. Making sure she survives this awful disease is my life and helping as many people as I can on the way.

We stayed home from the Telethon this year because Christen insisted we needed a break. Lizzy was the MDA Good will Ambassador for three straight years. It was quite an honor but we stayed very busy doing MDA functions a lot until this summer. We thought it was time for another child to have the spot light in our area. (The MDA here wanted NEW faces this year) They really needed a family that fought so hard to save their child's life. They needed a hero similar Lizzy from this area. The MDA Good Will Ambassador here this year is 2 year old girl from Peoria that was diagnosed at age 1 with SMA. I know 2 year olds are sweet and cute but it just did not feel right to me. Not, that I thought Lizzy should of been the Good Will Ambassador again but I guess I am stereotyping the MDA Good Will Ambassadors. Like the little girl that is National ....Like Luke(last years National ) and Tyler Ingles(From the area tht earned his wings last year) . Exceptional kids. They were/are fighters and just special individuals with so much strength. That is the way I feel about MDA Good Will Ambassadors. Strong minded kids on a mission to help others and to help raise money with their great personalities and intelligence. Their families went above and beyond. You need fighters and a family that goes beyond the dots for their child. Am I wrong? Should I feel bad for feeling this way?

We tried so hard to reach out to this family from Peoria that their daughter is this years Good Will Ambassador when the grandma called me over a year ago. The parents were just going to let nature take over with NO interventions. Grandma had contacted me several times just so upset because the Mom would not do any kind of interventions and the Dad would not do anything with out the Mom's approval. We tried so hard to help them with info NIV protocol from SMA, and of sorts of info Christen and Elizabeth's Dad even went and talked to the little girls Dad and Grandmother over a year ago. She has SMA type 2 no doubt. You can only do so much to help someone. They have to want to be helped. She is a happy little girl but......
It is just strange that this family wanted nothing to with the MDA not so long ago and all of a sudden their daughter is a the Good Will Ambassador.
It bothers me. Its been eating at me all day. I should not worry so much but this little girl and her family represent the MDA for central IL. Their story was not one that stays with your heart. I need to blow it off and forget about it not only bothered but it bothered my whole family.

Lizzy was watching the Telethon today and she is upset because she wanted to go. I made a donation " In honor of Elizabeth Hallam" this morning and on the air they said "in Memory!! " I was so mad. Its local so only a few local big cities see it but how many people think she passed a way from that comment? OH..... that just upsets me.

The MDA wrote Lizzy totally out of the script since we were not gong to be there and have not even acknowledge her at all with all the fundraising and appearances we have done this year and past years. Its like we did not exist anymore in their eyes. Bob(TV anchor) mentioned her just awhile ago and that warmed my heart. He is such a great guy.
Paul and I were going to take Lizzy ourselves today to the telethon we discussed it last night . Christen refused to go I can not lift the power chair with him.
The MDA had called a week or so ago and said they could get us a motel room some where else but with all Lizzy's machines that would not make any sense. I do not know why we could not stay at the motel where the telethon was at. We just could not afford to pay full price for a motel rooms at where the telethon was at. Paul is still not working as much as we would of loved to been apart of it.

The MDA is all about the kids and adults with neuromuscular diseases finding treatments, cures ,equipment and #1 RESEARCH . Its the strongest organization I know and I hope it stays that way.

I am impressed with all the research out there but lets get busy and see some actual results of treatment that is NOT a danger to the kids. 2010 seems like a great year for some Cures or treatments to help People with neuromuscular diseases have a better quality of life.




Interesting article that was sent to me it was published in 2008.

http://www.naturalnews.com/022831_breast_milk_stem_cells_stem_cell.html


Breast Milk Contains Stem Cells
The Perth scientist who made the world-first discovery that human breast milk contains stem cells is confident that within five years scientists will be harvesting them to research treatment for

conditions as far-reaching as spinal injuries, diabetes and Parkinson’s disease.

But what Dr Mark Cregan is excited about right now is the promise that his discovery could be the start of many more exciting

revelations about the potency of breast milk.

He believes that it not only meets all the nutritional needs of a growing infant but contains key markers that guide his or her development into adulthood.

“We already know how breast milk provides for the baby’s nutritional needs, but we are only just beginning to understand that it probably performs many other functions,” says Dr Cregan, a molecular biologist at The University of Western Australia.

He says that, in essence, a new mother’s mammary glands take over from the placenta to provide the development guidance to ensure a baby’s genetic destiny is fulfilled.

“It is setting the baby up for the perfect development,” he says. “We already know that babies who are breast fed have an IQ advantage and that there’s a raft of other health benefits. Researchers also believe

that the protective effects of being breast fed continue well into adult life.

“The point is that many mothers see milks as identical – formula milk and breast milk look the same so they must be the same. But we know now that they are quite different and a lot of the effects of breast milk versus formula don’t become apparent for decades. Formula companies have focussed on matching breast milk’s nutritional qualities but formula can never provide the developmental guidance.”

It was Dr Cregan’s interest in infant health that led him to investigate the complex cellular components of human milk. “I was looking at this vast complexity of cells and I thought, ‘No one knows anything about

them’.”

His hunch was that if breast milk contains all these cells, surely it has their precursors, too?

His team cultured cells from human breast milk and found a population that tested positive for the stem cell marker, nestin.

Further analysis showed that a side population of the stem cells were of multiple lineages with the potential to differentiate into multiple cell types. This means the cells could potentially be “reprogrammed” to form many types of human tissue.

He presented his research at the end of January to 200 of the world’s leading experts in the field at the International Conference of the Society for Research on Human Milk and Lactation in Perth.

“We have shown these cells have all the physical characteristics of stem cells. What we will do next is to see if they behave like stem cells,” he says.

If so, they promise to provide researchers with an entirely ethical means of harvesting stem cells for research without the debate that has dogged the harvesting of cells from embryos.

Further research on immune cells, which have also been found in breast milk and have already been shown to survive the baby’s digestive process, could provide a pathway to developing targets to beat certain viruses or bacteria.
[ 10Feb2008, ScienceNetwork WA,


Many prayers for all that need them.

"We believe in miracles because we live with one"

www.our-sma-angels.com/elizabeth